let's compile everything.
everything=nothing's going well.

yeah.



here you go.



And we'll linger on.
Time can't erase a feeling this strong.

but it's true i gave my all for you.
now my heart's in two.
and i can't find the other half.



so...



will you stay awake for me?
i don't wanna miss anything.
i don't wanna miss anything.

i promise...

i will share the air i breathe.
i'll give you my heart on the string.
because i don't wanna miss anything.




i need to talk to someone.
10:36 PM

can you hear my heart beating?
can you hear that sound?
10:44 PM

what else should be done?
what else?

can you please tell me?



no, you're not right.
say it, just say it.


i'm tired of being all alone.
and the solitary moment makes me want to come back home.
and yes, i did go back.
with tears welled up.

are you happy enough with it?
i hope you'd realise that i was born to tell you i love you.

Labels: i had to do what i have to, to make you mine.

8:23 PM

yeah.
that insecured feeling is coming back again.

well done.
10:30 PM

oh, take away everything from me.
just pretend that i didn't see nor know about it.
yes, just keep on doing all that.
yes, i want a room but you can have it all you want.

even a shampoo?
what a fcuk joke.

and aiman.

please don't care.
please don't care.
please don't care.
please don't care.
please don't care.
please don't care.
please don't care.
please don't care.
please don't care.
please don't care.
please don't care.
please don't care.
please don't care.
please don't care.


don't ask aiman.
please don't ask.




and i ever wonder whether i'm still someone to you.
or just someone when you need the most at your crucial times.




i don't seem to be bothered.
do i?

let's be ignorant.
uninformed and unaware.

thanks.
ok.
bye.

Labels: matter.

10:13 PM

and yeah.
what would be happening now if i hadn't called you on that night?
that very memorable night?
yes.
let me ponder for a while?
yes, 03/12/06.

how my life would be today if that wouldn't have happened.
it would be a totally different story now.
but i haven chosen that path and i ain't giving you up.
no, not this time.

but hey, it isn't so bad right?
that's what you might think.

but no, it's just not right.
i can be what you want me to be.



and if it's a hero you want, i can save you.

Labels: i can save you darling., yes

10:45 PM

and i've been living with insecurities everyday.
almost everyday.
what could have happened in the next few days?
what are my next steps for tomorrow?

i really don't know.
and i hate to have this feeling.
it just won't go away.

i don't want to feel lonely or so.
but just.

and thinking about it, it's happening again and again.
how am i supposed to go about doing it by myself?
yes, i'm not feeling good.
and thanks for reading.
at least i know there's people out there who'd listen me out.

here i go being so sensitive about almost everything.
but who likes the feeling of being so insecured?
yes, i put the word so to emphasise on the insecurity that i'm facing.
let's put it this way.
very insecured.
alright?

there i go again.

and yes, my tests are coming in less than 48 hours and i'm still here ranting.
ranting about things people might not wanna hear.
but blog's always my listening ear.
how now?

and i may have failed but i have loved you from the start.
does it get to you?
at least a lil' bit?

and i had the worst nightmare this morning.
a real-life nightmare.
i'm just petrified.
who knows it's gonna happen again.
but i don't want it.

no.
not in another million years.
it made things worse because it almost brought me to tears.
tears that has welled up in my eyes days before.

i've said enough.

Labels: you'll always be my baby.

9:37 PM

i'm back from camp.
done.



my tagboard's kinda quiet despite being away.
hmmm.

Labels: everyone's away.

11:04 AM

well, you're all i need.


And then I looked up at the sun and I could see
Oh the way that gravity turns on you and me
And then I looked up at the sun and saw the sky
And the way that gravity pulls on you and I, on you and I

Can you hear my heart beating
Can you hear that sound
Cause I can't help crying
And I wont look down

Labels: i really miss you.

1:04 AM

not another friday.
friday's just not my day.

it's more like ONIF for me.
Oh No, It's Friday.




well, i held back but still, it happened anyway.
how?








what else?







& i've been saying it time and again that i miss my girlfriend.

Labels: ONIF.

10:19 PM

i know why i'm not able to know what i've always wanted to listen to.

sometimes or most of the times, i just don't what i want.
i mean, not in terms of relationship, but what i want each and everyday.
it seems holidays are no fun.

you see now?

yeah.



here's a shoutout.
love you baby!
<3

XOXO.

Labels: shoutout.

11:05 PM

and when the sun hits the ground, it means it's time to get home.
yes, it's getting dark.


yeah, time goes on and on.
never has it been waiting for us.
if it's gone, that's it.
it brings a point of which you have to wait it to come instead of you waiting for it.
time isn't enough for the time we've spent with you.
yes, you.
that's you.


baby, you're always on my mind.

Labels: mindful.

8:45 PM

and nowadays, i just can't figure out what i've been wanting to listen to.
-muse?
-hot hot heat?
-coldplay?
-maroon 5?

damn, i'm getting headaches.


let me find out what i want to listen to for now because i just can't figure out.

Labels: no life., no music

9:12 PM

okay.

bloghopper, i hope you'd reveal yourself soon.




& this week's a total drag.
bored to certain death.
not as in death but bored to death.
it's just that i want to describe the word death.
get it?

nvm.





here i go.
bye.

Labels: draggy.

8:59 PM

yeah.

i know it's a saturday morning right now.
but i just don't look forward to fridays.

so draggy and disappointing.

Labels: D and D.

12:24 AM

here i go and start my nonsense.


okay, had a meet up with this boy.
and oh yes i miss him.

hey, don't get me wrong okay?
i'm not gay.
not even a little bit of my atoms are gay.
maybe gay, as in, happy-gay , you know after i met him.
wait.
not only him but his girlfriend too.
lol.

okay, had a great long chat with him, Benny, at McCafe.
well, we went about uncovering mysteries.

haha.
not funny aiman.
okay.

yeah, we had a great time chatting and ranting and okay, enough aiman.
it was just wonderful.

& all the more i can't wait for the outing with this three angels.
yeah, they're Aiman's Angels, or in short, AAs.
am i lame or what.


these three girls.

i love the one most on the right hand side.
yeah, that's fareezah for you.

well, i just can't wait for the next outing.

nights.

Labels: missing them all.

12:58 AM

all the cracking of brain just proves one thing.
something.
but let's not get too far.
thanks.


& happy new month to all.
and i'm glad school's out for me too.


i need some rest.

Labels: resting.

10:54 PM

Aiman

I'm Awesome. Okay, done.