I never felt complete when I come home. The family feeling isn't there to be exact. I don't feel loyal. When someone needs help, I don't feel the urgency to help any of them out. Well, in fact I'm just giving back what they haven't done for me. I wonder what's gonna become of us. Whenever I read/listen to stories or see photos about my friends going out with their family/parents, I envy them. A lot. But I do not show because I don't see a point showing when I know nothing's gonna change. Yes, it's true I'm the younger one, the last hope, the educated one and whatever bullshit, but sometimes I just want to feel like the younger one, the follower, the listener. I don't see myself leading the family at all. And I don't know why the fuck is my maternal side asking me to do all that-to lead, to advice my elder bros and sis whenever they hurt mum? For whatever fuck, they should know better. I'm always the one helping mum via background by eating her dinner, appreciating what she does, help her out to clean the house and such but what the fuck is my sister doing? Urgh. Oh dear blog, help me out.
7:48 PM

Urgh. Fucking irritated. Politics politics politics. Tsk. Urgh!

Enough said. Discrepancies found. How am I supposed to eliminate this problems? A huge task awaits me. And damn, how I wish I got better team to work around with. :/
5:16 PM

Urgh. This is frustrating. :/
9:13 PM

Should I or should I not speak to you?
9:00 PM

It's amazing how one could develop feelings just through the use of media/internet in a way that you seldom or rarely see the face of the other gender. It's just truly amazing.

I think it's amazing because I think I just felt it. :)
10:38 PM

Well, alright. Recap.

I'm Aiman. I'm 20 years old. And jobless. Well, at least for the next few hours or so. And I have to start trying to think like an adult. Period.

And so, last day of my job was great fun. Everything went on so smoothly. All things fell into place and special thanks to Uncle Desmond (Jackie Chan-look-a-like) for treating me to my 2nd meal on thursday in 3 hours. Well, had Mee Siam at 1pm and was eating Mee Soto at 4pm. -.- I know. It's heavy. Whatever it is, everything was great. Even Pathology path on that day had so little things.

Last but not least, special thanks to Uncles Mazlan, Khusaini, Jerry, Tahir, Ghazali and Brothers Amin, Syed and Imran.
11:37 AM

OKAY, so here goes another year. And resolutions? I've not really thought about any. But oh well, here's the list from last year. And the results from each resolutions will be shown too. I'm kinda upset but that's parts and parcels of life right?

POOF!

1.Firstly, i'd like to be a better son. Hopefully, God will guide me through.
-okay, i'm not sure about this, but God knows.

2.Turn the tables around and push up my GPA. It's stuck at around 2.8 something, so let's push it and aim for university perhaps?
-damn. I've tried my best.

3.Be a person with much better qualities. Maybe qualities that might be useful in my pursue towards...
-DAMNED!

4.Improve my patience.
-I guess so. :D

5.As the date for me to serve the nation is looming nearer and nearer, i'd like to train myself up and get fitter in time for NS. Can anyone be my personal trainer?
-DAMN again. For the time being NO. Not with my this injured knee. LOL.

6.Learn new lifeskills?
-oh yes. not really new but improved on one of my lifeskills.

7.Get into photography module next semester. Muhd, you better join me.
-Let's not talk about this. Haha.

8.Treat Caspar well in the future.
-:) I hope so.

9.Utter lesser bad language or foul words. LOL.
-I don't know. I think I just got worse. Darn.

10.Sleep earlier if i've nothing better to do at night.
-Haha! Recently, not. Lol.

11.Play more sports?
-....

12.Try my very best to eat healthy. ROFL.
-.........


Okay, that's about it. Gosh, a fact that I have to know. I'll no longer be a teen in 22 days. DARN DARN DARN! haha.

Labels: Time will be spent at home today.

2:46 PM

WOOHOO! Awesome day. Fabulous physio session today. Thank god I have much more mobility. Could go down the steps a wee bit better today though I don't see itself as normal going down steps. I have to tip toe a little bit to make sure not much pain on my left knee. Huhu. And then.... I just had to buy a Christmas present for myself. It's a christmas present because it's the time of the year. Not that I celebrate it or anything nor am I against it. LOL. And so a warm cuddly hoodie from Uniqlo became mine. Geez. There's so many cheap sales everywhere. But due to this injury, much money was spent on treatment and all the checkups and what not. But still I don't have to look at the past. Just gotta go through it and get over this obstacle. Like what they say, "Part and parcels of life"?

Oh, New Year's coming and new set of resolutions will be produced. Time to start thinking. Well, I did fulfill some of this year's reso.

I'm gonna recover!
11:18 PM

Post number 565.

It's been a month since my injury. And today's the day of the MRI results. Hopefully, results are good. I wouldn't want to go through a surgery. It could kill me! As in, I can't play soccer anymore. THAT'LL TOTALLY KILL ME. The end.
11:40 AM

A great birthday present for next year would be The Killers concert ticket on 24th January! OMG. Someone please get me that. Hehe. I'd like to be The Victims!
9:17 PM

Aiman

I'm Awesome. Okay, done.